Dragons, you seek the coldest hearts

Your way of thinking is softer, not harsher.

If a weaver dies by song, you said you’ve chosen to give way to that fate.

This is soft, because responsibility is refused. Effort not given.

Darkness is easier than light. Have you not realized this? You are utterly exposed in light. There is nothing that can be hidden from all sight. This is a vulnerability you are not accustomed to. Vulnerability is strength. Strength and weakness are interdependent.

In the darkness
The dragon wakes
The dragon awakens
To a heart that is numbed with cold
The dragon takes

It is harsher to step into light. The rays are sharp, they could hurt your gaze. They could blind you. Overwhelm you.

Darkness is comfortable, easier to share.
Light hurts, but it cares.

Frequently you say, you lack experience. Why must you insist on immersion before beginning to construct your knowledge? How else do you build your critical skill set? How could you analyze if you demand more than preliminary data? You can’t go deeper unless you reconcile yourself with preliminary observations.

If you don’t understand context, learn before making swift judgments. If what you perceive is too overwhelming for you, you tried. Yet stop not there. Everything, anything, nothing … all can be explored despite lacking direct experience.

With you at my side, the dragon sleeps
On dragon wings, your wishes leap

That is hardly harsh. Avoiding engagement with the world beyond your nest is soft, not harsh.

What is harsh? Risking all with no guarantee of acceptance, assistance, reassurance, acknowledgement, nor repayment. Willingness to sacrifice not as a martyr – for all martyrs are rewarded – but all you held on for you. With no expectation of reward. Only when you lose all, could you gain all.

You say you knew little and made your choices too swift before you could understand. You maintain this trait. When offered information you lack, you shut down, pulling from engagement … and make no attempt before those you harmed to understand the depth of how you hurt them.

So why do I bother with you? Why do I push you, nudge you as I can? Because I saw your glimmer. A window shaft, perhaps, but it’s there.

I wasn’t born resilient – if there’s genetic studies, well, genes can predispose a person but hardly able to guarantee a desirable phenotype.

My loved ones and my circumstances were never distractions. They keep me here. I will not tolerate breaking myself to please your pressure to conform to views that help me not.

You speak of connections. What connections do you hold to yourself other than for survival? I know you have these. They are there.

How willing are you to confront yourself? Most importantly, how willing are you to embrace yourself? Are you able to say words of compassion to yourself? Can you face Mirror and say you are human too? Are you able to say to yourself, “I love you. I’m sorry. Please forgive me.” I swish and swirl amongst you, ever reflecting and challenging. You cannot pass Mirror to face Cloud if you are pinned by Sword and lost within and without Jewel.

Discipline and punishment are not identical.

Your wishes can bring forth
A destructive future or,
You can bring salvation

Unwillingness to face all of yourself is the climb to stagnation. For many, this way is paved by introspection, introversion of personal energies, prayers and ceremonies and ritual. Yet there is a point when all the inner light means little. There is a time when all your inner world no longer serves you. When the darkness can no longer give of its bounty to you.

Darkness bears treasures. You will find treasure in darkness. When you find treasure, don’t you know what to do next?

You carry the fruits of your labour outward. You bring your treasures to show the others of what your search and peace restored and revived for you. Entering the Cave is well and good, go explore the labyrinth of self. Yet you must know that outside will call for you, louder and louder. What will you do? What will you choose?

We cannot restore what was lost to its full splendour. Know that if all be gone, life will go on. From the prokaryotic to the remnants of solar death, life lives on. What use is it to project into a future that may not be?

In the darkness
The dragon wakes
The dragon awakens
To a heart that is numbed with cold
The dragon takes

This is the harsher way. This is detachment. To understand your present is the harsher way. To realize you are not born nor die alone is the harsher way. So attached are you to punishment that you forgot discipline! So attached you are to failing your agency and communion that you forget what is connection! So attached are you to your belonging that you have forgotten that the Other is as you.


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